Believe me you know better than anyone that I never give up

Once more I'm here to tell to myself how I feel and what I feel, I love when my essence is under a grave with my name, because when I bury it, it comes back stronger, with higher and vibrant intensity, life is in color but sometimes should be black and white so the colors could be vivid and wonderul, let me reborn to become once more in myself so I could be the one you'd like God, so I could have what is part of this magnificent dream, with this peaceful music I feel the happiness I don't have, as If I was in the heaven, but I know I'm still here with my strenghteness and weakness with things I cannot accept and never could do! But the one that loves you God! and believe me you know better than anyone that I never give up since I have no idea what kind of power you have over me, since I'm not perfect, I don't think I am a person according to heart , I don't deserve you, you're the Lord!............so I know who I am, but don't punish me, don't get away his heart from me, get it closer.... I need the whiteness of his soul and feel his arms and his lips over mine, his tenderness is the part that is missing in my life to be completed............I'm not in love with him , but if he gives me a chance I have no doubt , let me become in that spring voice so evrything get in color and we could reborn with the cherry blosson after the winter is over, let me go after your steps and save me of this loneliness, bring your angel close to me and don't get away, now I left everything in your hands, I'm yours Jesus!